Mommyhood Unrefined

"So to keep me from becoming conceited because of the surpassing greatness of the revelations, a thorn was given me in the flesh, a messenger of Satan to harass me, to keep me from becoming conceited. Three times I pleaded with the Lord about this, that it should leave me. But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weakness, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong." 2 Corinthians 12:7-10 We are less than three months from December, almost a year from the beginning. The unraveling itself resonates just like yesterday. However, the spiritual path has brought us many steps forward. There is a huge contrast to who we were when this began versus now. The Lord has come alongside us. He is undoing and rebuilding us. I'

Words are powerful. In fellowship with friends, the topic of dating was briefly mentioned. A friend was discussing an acquaintance being set up with a single mom. The general response was negative. The statements were not meant to single me out or inflict pain, but each opinion stated hurt the deeper parts of my heart. My inward fears took a direct hit. I had to reason with myself. Someday, the Lord will call me to single motherhood. Someday, I will join the ranks of those that have come from broken marriages or have been widowed. Is that what onlookers will think; that I'm baggage not worth committing to because I had a past? Will I appear to be more of a burden than something worth pursuing? Will I not fit the ideal picture? I'm afraid that, indirectly, I've been told some of the answers to these questions. Heavy. Hearing other people's thoughts on this prior to it becoming my reality initially brought fear and insecurity. This is what I'm walking towards. My f