Mere thorns
"God has called me to courage, and that has not at all looked like what I thought. I thought it meant fighting harder upstream. Unfortunately, that path has lead me to deeper failure. Courage has actually been taking the plunge to let go and submit my "normal" filter in exchange for an eternal one. Courage has been taking the next step into the dark when every fiber in me is crying to turn around. Courage has been choosing to float down the river of His raging grace, leaving my personal goals and dreams behind hoping that said grace would be enough to survive. Courage has been admitting my limits, choosing what I have energy for, and realizing that the globe will still spin in spite of whatever my 100% measures up to that day. Courage has been allowing others to stand in the gap and intercede for us when all I wanted was to cling to some shred of self sufficiency. Courage has been sowing seeds of His peace and grace when all I want is to be a pud