Walking by faith...and failing miserably
"...for we walk by faith, not by sight." 2 Corinthians 5:7 That is a short and simple verse with a real challenge. Life continues to feel like a constant uprooting of our plans. I'm going to be real here. At times, I find myself inwardly attempting to foresee what God might have waiting. This becomes a constant game of accounting for all possibilities. It's quite the hindrance. It keeps me from doing things I should and making choices that may not necessarily benefit us in the long run. The knowledge and presence of Ryan's cancer has increased this stumbling block in many ways. But inevitably, what I thought was stable, shifts dramatically. Something unpredictable comes into the picture. It could be something as small as changing the boys bed time routine as Ryan is losing his sense of spacial awareness. It could be an unexpected expense, like recently hearing that we need to replace our furnace. It could be continuing to argue with our insurance company to f